I recently wrote a blog post titled "Conquering your fears", in that post, I focused on a fear that I've had for years. Progressively, over the last few years, it seems to have worsened. Almost to a paralyzing degree. And only when there was no other option, did I face my fear, and as I explained in the post, I may not have conquered it, but I am definitely not afraid to charge it...head on!
After that post, I began discussing fears with some of my friends, and it made me remember the initial fears I had with my writing:
-feared others to reading it (critique it)
-feared publishers/agents rejecting it
I remember when I first read the rules for PRO membership. I had to send in a manuscript or rejection letter. That felt so humiliating to send in a rejection letter. But, it seemed even more humiliating to send in the manuscript that was rejected.
To this day, I still have the slightest amount of anxiety every time I receive a critique or send a query letter.
But, it isn't the fear of not receiving a contract or seeing strikeouts from critique partners. No, it's this indescribable sense of maybe the story isn't done. Could I tell more? Should I tell more? Would that just be over-telling the story?
I'm not a plotter. I'm a pantser. I write until my characters stop talking, but is that it? Should I keep writing? Should I keep writing until I hit that 100,000 word count?
Ughh!!! What is it about fear? Does it just continue to reshape or does it ever go away?
What do you fear?